Richard had suffered with serve depression his entire adult life. He was on numerous medications and was getting professional help. He had a partner who loved him and a ten year old daughter who loved him. But none of these things could pull him out of the dark place he was in.
Richard loved animals. When he and his partner were living in Florida they did rescue and rehabilitation for wild animals. Primarily they dealt with possums and raccoons. Richard had two pet raccoons (not at the same time) that were a result of the rescue program. Both had been abandoned pets and couldn't be released. He loved themed dearly and I know it broke his heart when they passed away. While in Florida they also had a houseful of cats and dogs (all rescues).
Richard was also a very talented costumer. He had worked with some regional theaters in Florida doing costuming. He had just done some sewing for me in May. He made a couple of Victorian inspired skirts for me for the steampunk convention I was going to. It was then when he told me he had tried to kill himself (again) in March. What do you say to someone who tells you that? I told him that I loved him and that I'm glad he didn't succeed.
So, I can't say that his death came as a surprise to me. I'm still stunned, my heart aches for him and those he has left behind. I know that there was nothing I could have said or done to stop him. It still doesn't make his loss any easier.
Anthony, Richard's partner of 26 years, is going to hold a healing circle at their house on Friday for their close friends. Richard's parents are having a memorial service at their church next Monday. I am planning on attending both.
I hope that Richard has found the peace in death that he fought so hard to find in life. I will miss him.
May 15, 1962 - August 9, 2012